Well this morning I have tears flowing this morning in my prayer.

That is not unusual, I am so blessed to have the Holy Spirit really felt  strong, undeniably inside me often, whether I am repenting or celebrating. I feel we walk together and He is Inside me.

Today I read Zephaniah. I was led there during a sermon by David Wilkerson that moved me greatly because I am so "spit out" myself, already by lukewarm churches, by churches that are abusing and shifting The Word to make church cozy and sermons friendly.

I believe God is anguishing over His church. I do believe He is calling up a remnant. I understood today without a doubt I am part of that remnant. My fire, my fierce eagerness to walk holy and learn and live from The Word - only.  And as Pastor Wilkerson was sharing about certain church practices and certain ways we have been deceived by pastors with their own agenda for personal wealth or book sales, or even less obvious obfuscations.... I suddenly was caught up in the prayer at the end of the sermon. I love Pastor Wilkerson and other pastors that call the flock up to the altar, to stand and pray - aloud - and offer both your needs and your repentance to God.

Yes, I was caught up in my pursuit of financial security and success. I have been an entrepreneur all my life. Since I was young, so I do mean right out of the gate. I have had such an adventurous life and exciting business across the world. I have been a true entrepreneur.

In those years of exciting and daring and creative pursuits - really a book in the waiting - I also "supported" myself and my efforts with hypnosis, and positive thinking exercises, shamanic drumming and soul retrieval - literally every part of new age and ancient rituals that seemed so harmless because after all, it was helping me be a better me, right? I create my own reality, right? I was a character and every pursuit seemed to broaden my story line and feed the raconteur in me.

But it did not yield success. No permanent success. I was fortunate to have a very powerful, still, self contained partner for these last 20 years of my life. (Another story for another day.) In that balance, the self-enhancement, focused worked in relationship, helped me in many ways... but has proven to be a very long way around... only to miss the central target. My life with Jesus. My action with the Holy Spirit.

So many stories within each part of this sharing today - but what I really wanted to SAY today... is this sermon called me to  Zephaniah. A tiny book in the Bible. Indeed, never had I heard of it. I read it, and highlighted where a near-weeping Pastor Wilkerson was saying how God Grieves, and how in the Old Testament this tiny book reminds us:

a Faithful Remnant  8 "Therefore wait for Me', says the LORD, "until the day I rise up 'for plunder; My determination is to "gather the nations to my Assembly of kingdoms, to pour on them My indignation, All my fierce anger; All the earth shall be devoured by My jealousy.

16 In that day it shall be said to Jerusalem;  "Do not fear; Zion, let not your hands be weak.

17 The LORD your God in your midst, The Mighty One, will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing"

18 "I will gather those who "sorrow over the appointed assembly, who are among you. To whom its reproach is a burden.

I stood at the end of this sermon, weeping myself for the Church, for me, and I repented again all sorcery and alternative pathways that I chose over God. Determined over and over that I will never again have my eyes elsewhere, my ears listening elsewhere.

Since the day I really caught fire with Jesus, nothing about business/finance/success has been a care to me. And yet, here I am overflowing with gifts, projects, blessed business in His name.

HERE IS THE SERMON. If you appreciate David Wilkerson - so many of his sermons will touch your heart and your motives and your running towards God.

Let's go warriors!