There are so many things I have written, waiting to be edited and just finished for now... so many thoughts, so many experiences are overwhelming my ability to sit and write. It is just so much easier to sit and talk and tell stories.

Ah, But God. Last night I heard my Pastor speak of the Love of God in such a new way that it had me in prayer and in thoughtfulness during the night and I knew I would take this early morning time to write it. I think this is such a good discipline for me, maybe for all of us, to write. To just sit and write.

So last night Pastor Locke spoke of God's Love throughout the Bible. Okay, yes of course. But then, so typical of this man of God that moves me so - he spoke through a perspective I had simply never had. Garden of Eden. So the snake, Satan, tempted the woman. 
I had never really gone deep into the wording of Genesis. Let's do that with this new perspective Pastor gave me.

Genesis 3

1 Now the serpent was more crafty than any of the wild animals the LORD God had made. He said to the woman, “Did God really say, ‘You must not eat from any tree in the garden’?”

2 The woman said to the serpent, “We may eat fruit from the trees in the garden,

3 but God did say, ‘You must not eat fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, and you must not touch it, or you will die.’ ”

4 “You will not certainly die,” the serpent said to the woman.

5 “For God knows that when you eat from it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil.”

6 When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was good for food and pleasing to the eye, and also desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it. She also gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it.

So Eve was deceived and Adam -WHO WAS NEXT TO HER - chose to eat this forbidden fruit. The way always I have heard this, had it shared with me - was that Adam said (with emphasis)

11 And he said, “Who told you that you were naked? Have you eaten from the tree that I commanded you not to eat from?”

12 The man said, “The woman you put here with me—she gave me some fruit from the tree, and I ate it.”

When Pastor read through this verse as a tragic love story, that Adam so loved his WIFE that he chose to turn away from GOD.... it moved me. I thought exactly of how when Pat died she turned away from me, so beautifully and oh-so confidently when she squeezed my hand without looking at me, and said, "You're okay honey, it is just me and Jesus now." SHE had chosen her Saviour over me. And I am so much the better for any possible conversation we might have had elongated over those next slow hours. (If you don't know my lovely parting with my partner Pat, read it here.)

So, it is so tragic to think of a human love that would turn away from God, from Eden, from walking every day with the Creator.... for a human relationship. What a powerful gift from Pat to me to live with. Share. Stand with.

Then the Second Adam, our Lord Jesus. Oh! The love He too turned away from His Father for us, His Bride, to die for us. One turning away brought us sin and bondage. One turning away brought us freedom from both. What Love.

I am going to spend time in this new perspective of Love in the Bible, and the words of Adam in the Garden. Always it had been presented as Adam throwing his beloved under the bus.... oh, but what of such a tragic love that he lost his way with God for Love. And the recovery, the beautiful fulfilment we find over and over in this beautiful love story of the Bible.