Finding and Fighting MY Goliath: I COME WITH A NAME.
SO: Leaving Paradise.
Leaving this place that encouraged the best of me I have ever know.
Leaving the dearest friends I know.
Leaving, again.
After "THE CONVERSATION" on Saturday, and my crying out to the Lord to change me, make me ready during my night - Sunday came, and Church came. Pastor Justin ably shared a provocative sermons from Samuel about David and Goliath. Giant, Under dog, fight, Scrappy sheep-boy wins. We all have heard it, right? Rocks and Slingshots.
Well: The message HIT me totally. My Goliath:
Unwanted.
No Family.
No Home.
I was dumbstruck at sitting in the pew, I could call up how deep this was, how still unhealed.
JUST as Suddenly, I was READY! I UNDERSTOOD.
The Lord gave me such an insight to Go! Take the very Boldness He blessed me with. And Go!
I went to the altar and wept with power and joy and gratitude for the Lord to help me so immediately. And I felt this paw on my back, praying over me and I knew it was Pastor. I was re-invigorated in prayer again.
Such clarity. Freedom was before me, Right Before Me, in the Next Steps: Always have I been a bit of a Nomad until Pat. I traveled the world, made friends and lived for a while. Comfortable in the movement, but it had been over 20 years. The world had changed. I had changed.
And still ALL I COULD FEEL WAS YES LORD! YES! FREEDOM from my PAST ABANDONMENTS.
You KNOW I cam home and read Samule again. A few times. Circled words. Took a momnet. Pondered and asked for even more depth of guidance from Him. Yes Holy Spirit - I run to this new relationship.
I spent all the rest of Sunday and evening listening to different pastors discuss Samuel and specifically David the Shepherd Boy to become King and the Slaying of Goliath.
They were mostly great, some not so interesting in their breakdown - and then - I came across Jackie Hill Perry's talk on David and Goliath.
EVERYTHING CHANGED FOR ME:
Goliath, with your big ol head, and your big ol arms, and your big ol self - you shield, your armor, your history of wins - I AM NOT AFRAID. I COME, I COME,
I COME WITH A NAME.
Yahweh. Lord God of Hosts.This worked for me more than I can say. This saying, this knowing, that I AM ARMED with the
NAME OF MY LORD. I feel so empowered by being re-directed to re-member this. I am ARMED
with the NAME of the LORD. All I need, ever. And NOW: I really Know that I Know this.
What Change will THAT make for me now, in these next steps? I am so ready.
More even than this blessing, there was more, yesterday. See next!
I just found this and enjoyed it very much:
THE REAL HERO - David and Goliath (link)
