Really I don't know where to begin. Even more importantly, I don't know where to end.
I first heard the word Cessationist when I left the Mega Church.

No One can convince me the Holy Spirit is not at Work, right now. That we are the hands and feet, calling on the Great Comforter when we need Prayer, the Great Healer when we need healing.

I personally, have felt the Holy Spirit - often - drop right into my room, my church, my prayer, my body.
I pray and don't know what has been said.
I weep from someplace deeper than my entire life experience at the mention of the name of Jesus, and I know I am In His Presence.
I do not think the gifts ended with the Apostles.
Nor the Authority.

I am not a stupid woman, but I am not a Mensa smart one either. Much of the conversations about interpretations and translation of the bible leave me confused. In a funk, some times staring out the window dazed. Acknowledging, it is "easier" to hear Jack Hibbs and feel that feeling. But even that "feeling" of receivership has been from a full stop to a living start. It was indeed Easy to Accept Jesus once I accepted Jesus.

Now the weeds. Now the details. Now the controversies. Have I just accepted everything at face value.
Well, yes.

I DO BELIEVE THE BIBLE IS THE WORD OF GOD and YES I BELIEVE THE HOLY SPIRIT AUTHORED IT THROUGH THE MEN WHO WROTE IT OVER THE AGES.

I believe this because I have read it. I have sought help in understanding it.

How the Bible supports and fulfills itself is amazing. I do have to be Shown that, yes. But once I see it and learn it, wow it is beautiful. How the OT prophesied over the coming of Jesus in the NT.
And the stakes at hand: if but ONE of the Prophesies are not fulfilled... then our God is not our God and but a liar.

VERY HIGH STAKES.

Ah, but then - which Bible?
Which Translation?
Does reading in Aramaic matter?
Is that the language to read or study in or Hebrew and Greek?
I am just reading enough through my first Bible (NKJ) that I am bumping into alternate translations. Bumping along and investigations drew me close because of the Chinese translation I read where:


The textbook, published by the government-run University of Electronic Science and Technology Press, states: “The crowd wanted to stone the woman to death as per their law.

But Jesus said, ‘Let the one who has never sinned throw the first stone.’ Hearing this, they slipped away one by one.
When the crowd disappeared, Jesus stoned the sinner to death, saying, ‘I too am a sinner. But if the law could only be executed by men without blemish, the law would be dead.’”

It is almost as though the Chinese gave me an END point of NO.

Not True. Not my Jesus. 

Okay, so from there, how does one determine the lesser sleights, the lesser mis leadings? How do we find our way? How do we know that The Bible is The Word - The Bible I AM READING?
I am uncomfortable even questioning. I really don't want to question.

And as I read about scrolls and gospels found... like Enoch. like Essene Gospels, I have no idea where to put them in my mind. They are not in the Bible. Do I need to know why? Am I to ask why? Will I understand what and why?

HISTORY comes slow to my reading and retaining.

I am just beginning to look at influences on the Bible, MY BIBLE - over History. And I wonder if I will go deep. It is difficult, is it important?
I love my Jesus. I walk with Him, I listen and ask the Holy Spirit for every bit of guidance.

THAT is the only real true thing, right?

So who is Scofield, and why such a controversy.  And leading an entire generation and then subsequent generations into confusion over his notes and interpretation? Here where I am with Jack Hibbs.

The Scofield teaching is concerned with a literal Jewish kingdom to last for a millennium.  It was first brought into the early church by some Jews who still could not give up the hope taught to them by the scribes and Pharisees.  The Bible does not teach it, and the disciples who had been taught it, rejected it after Pentecost.  Jesus warned about it in Matthew 16:6-12.  Scofield’s work was calculated to promote certain ideas.  

We must ask ourselves if Jesus ever offered or announced himself as an earthly King or claimed David’s throne?  Had he ever in any way suggested he was going to set up an earthly kingdom?  He said to Pilate, “My kingdom is not of this world, if my kingdom were of this world, then would my servants fight, that I should not be delivered to the Jews, but now is my kingdom not from hence (John 18:36).  They could not prove him guilty before Pilate of any offense against Rome….

In 1890, Scofield started a Bible Correspondence Course which he directed until 1914 when it was taken over by the Moody Bible Institute.  Tens of thousands of students scattered over the world were indoctrinated with his dispensational ideas.

https://fgcp.org/content/terrible-error-scofield-bible

Affiliated with D.L. Moody, Scofield later began work on his reference Bible, through which he popularized a new system of theological interpretation called “Dispensationalism,” developed by an Anglo-Irish man named John Nelson Darby.

When Scofield’s Bible was published in 1909, at a time of great expectation about the end of the world, his interpretive matrix took fundamentalism by storm, quickly becoming one of the best selling Bibles in history. This is the Bible that created “The Thief in the Night,” Hal Lindsay, Christian Zionism, and Left Behind. In other words, it is the Bible which has dominated a very visible portion of the Christian imagination for the last 100 years.

https://jmichaelrios.wordpress.com/2016/06/30/scofields-abominable-study-bible/

I cannot yet truly articulate this, but I know that what I study is true. I know that my God is a Working God. I know HE is inside me, Alive. Working. And I have a job to do, a way to be, to show up and tell the world about Jesus.

I want to leave this here, and drop it into my blog, for now. But my wrestling with Scofield: Pro and Con - has just begun. It is a time to be so careful of distractors, of false directions and prophets. I do, I do believe the End is near. I must be careful and I must be attentive to where I put my head and heart and time.

I thank all my teachers and all the friends who love me so much they want to share what they have come to know. And their path, how the Holy Spirit laid the pavers out right in front of them... in some sort of life pattern.

I know my pavers are paying out clearly as I await next steps, Oh Father. So far, for now, my next living situation, He led me HERE.
A true Animal Farm.

A TRUE Chubby Bird Ranch. Miniature Donkeys. Emus. Chickens and Pigs. Llamas. Birds. Patti....
Thank you Jesus. You are so funny.
I will read your WORD under one of these many pages while the emus nibble at the pages and stay in WONDER.