EVERYDAY.

I read. Everyday. I love the Word so much, and don't know why I struggle often with understanding. But I so love the pursuit, and so love the Asking of the Holy Spirit to guide me.

I DO know the Word us changing me inside and out. it is showing me new directions and skills and tendencies. Patience. Lack of Patience. Conviction so deep over what the world would say are such simple things... 
everybody does that
a little exaggeration doesn't hurt
take one, no one will notice

Oh Lord change me more every day, Every opportunity, more of You and Less of Me.
I really mean it. I have seen, I have lived when that change happens. I feel it and know it.
I am better every day Lord.

Still unworthy. Still such a sinner.
And yet, You love me.

“This Book contains the mind of God, the state of man, the way of salvation, the doom of sinners, and the happiness of believers. It’s doctrines are holy, it’s precepts are binding, its histories are true and its decisions are immutable. Read it to be wise, believe it to be saved, and practice it to be holy. It contains light to direct you, food to support you, and comfort to cheer you. It is the traveler’s map, the pilgrim’s staff, the pilot’s compass, the soldier’s sword, and the Christian’s charter. It should fill the memory, rule the heart, and guide the feet. Read it slowly, frequently, and prayerfully. Here paradise is restored, heaven opened and the gates of Hell are disclosed. Christ is its grand subject, our good its design and the glory of God its end. It should fill the memory, rule the heart and guide the feet. Read it slowly, frequently, prayerfully. It is a mine of wealth, a paradise of glory and a river of pleasure. It is given you in life, will be open at the judgement and be remembered forever. It invokes the highest responsibility, rewards the greatest labor and condemns all who trifle with its holy contents.””
― John F. MacArthur Jr., MacArthur’s Quick Reference Guide to the Bible