These last days I kept being....told? guided? to the book of Micah. I read it, needed help and study guides, read again.

Why Lord, is this my word now? what do You want me to see? hear? learn?
Why can I not grasp a depth, a new angle or understanding?

I keep reading and began again today. I heard a new word.

I understand the important of  5:2. famous across all versions:
Predicting Jesus as Messiah and where He is coming. 

The Coming Messiah

Micah 5:2
New International Version
“But you, Bethlehem Ephrathah,
though you are small among the clans^[a] of Judah, 
out of you will come for me
one who will be ruler over Israel,
whose origins are from of old,
from ancient times.”

Micah 5:2

New King James Version
"But you, Bethlehem Ephrathah,
Though you are little among the thousands of Judah,
Yet out of you shall come forth to Me
The One to be Ruler in Israel,
Whose goings forth are from of old,
From ^[a]everlasting.”

Yes, it never gets old to me, or tiresome, the predictive quality of the Bible, how It fulfills Itself.
Was this my Word?
It did not feel like it was....

Then I learned the word  TASHLICH:  (תשליך) is a ritual that many Jews observe during Rosh HaShanah. Tashlich means "casting off" in Hebrew and involves symbolically casting off the sins of the previous year by tossing pieces of bread or another food into a body of flowing water. Just as the water carries away the bits of bread, so too are sins symbolically carried away. Since Rosh HaShanah is the Jewish new year, in this way the participant hopes to start the new year with a clean slate.

GOD FORGIVES US.

Many reasons are given for this custom:

• One reason for saying Tashlich next to water goes back to Abraham's trip to sacrifice his son, Isaac, which took place on Rosh Hashanah. On the way to the designated location, the Satan tried several times to undermine Abraham's progress. One of the Satan's tricks was to have a river materialize and block Abraham's path. Undeterred, Abraham forged on straight into the river followed by his small entourage. Upon reaching the middle of the river when the water reached his neck, Abraham prayed to G‑d and the river dried up. We commemorate the self-sacrifice of Abraham by going to a river bank.
• Another reason for saying Tashlich next to a river is because Rosh Hashanah is the day when we coronate G‑d as King of the Universe. Jewish kings are anointed next to rivers, and so it is appropriate that we crown G‑d as our King next to a river, as well.
• Going to a river bank or sea shore is also awe inspiring as we contemplate G‑d's mercy in preventing the waters from flooding the dry land. The realization of G‑d's omnipotence inspires us to repent.
  Though we do Tashlich beside an earthly river or sea, this watery entity actually represents its Heavenly counterpart. Jewish mysticism teaches that water corresponds to the attribute of kindness. On Rosh Hashanah, we beseech G‑d to treat us with kindness during the new year.
• Water with fish is optimal since fish are not subject to the "evil eye" and are also known to have many offspring. Fish do not have eyelids, so their eyes are always open. This is likened to G‑d's constant supervision over us, and we pray that He mercifully care for us. Also, just as fish may be caught in a fisherman's net, so, too, we are caught in the net of judgment. This awareness helps awaken us to repent.

Then how it hit me: God forgives me everything. Repent. Forgive myself, but all while REPENTING. Turning away from the sin. From the sheer deep regret of my flesh and my inability... and then I remember Paul. Then I remember the law, to point us to our inability.

I am refreshed released anew from weight of sin and knowing God forgets it all...relieves me of it - now go home and sin no more.
And start again.