As long as I can fix it, or think I can fix it - He waits.

He waits until I am tired. Fully Spent.
He waits until I am broken. Fully Empty.

He waits until I can learn it is about Him.
He let's me wrestle with Him until...
DAWN BREAKS.
Until the LIGHT COMES.

The day is Breaking.

I don't want an errand just to fill your need, HE says.
I want you to Know Me.
I will not let You go, I say.

My relationship with You Lord has changed me.
Can change my life, my family, my story, my past.

 Once impatient, unkind, angry... you are born that way, always impatient, unkind, angry - that is 
Not what You say Lord.
It is not what the Word says.
It is not what the Word says of me.

Exhausted, I give way with my Spiritual Limp, knowing it is Him. Only Him.
Let go and give Him everything. 
I want His Favor.
God walks right back into my yesterday and heals it, fixes it.
Ugly. Messy.

Jacob got touched in the hip socket because he was out of order, spiritual order.
God wants to know how we handle problems. Jacob had to get into the right posture.
He had to serve out the pain.

I am getting into posture:
Break Independence.
Lean in.
Press in.

God I walk in my Spiritual Limp. Without Your oil I am a mess.
Learning the difference between Mercy and Grace.

The Devil is right there.
He will destroy me. 
Keep me in anger.
God's plan is that I am blessed and walk free, as a child of the King.

Spiritual preparation.
We are born to be blessed and give Him honor.
To be so grateful, so joyful, so peaceful, so kind... that the World Wonders.