Again, on something ever-so-slight... I found myself bound in fear last night. I confessed it to a friend to release it and forgive myself my sins. I mean, FEAR NOT is a command not an invitation only.
I am a child of God, a child of the King.
I am not to live in or live with anxiety.

So last night when it crept in through a story not worth repeating in detail, I called forth the mercy of the Lord to free me from my Old Wine Skin. I recognized her and did not want her.

She has been hugged and loved-up with enough New Age that I can honestly say "I see her". I know absolutely what causes her life, what brings her forth. Ancient.
And I have forgiven myself for this weakness; I have forgiven perpetrators that caused or enhanced or even recently dismissed the facts; I have invited myself to heal more and more thoroughly from any feeling of lack of safety. 

Psalm 91 is my answer. It is my (new) guide instead of rhythmic breathing, shamanic drumming and writing down dreams.

91 He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
² I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust.
³ Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence.
⁴ He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler.
⁵ Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night; nor for the arrow that flieth by day;
⁶ Nor for the pestilence that walketh in darkness; nor for the destruction that wasteth at noonday.
⁷ A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee.

So still last night I sat. I asked for the Holy Spirit to reveal to me what I suspected was "causing" fear, and I rebuked the entry of the evil into my thoughts and sat within the Power of the Name of Jesus. I was amazed at watching how long it took my "flesh" to release. Really, until this morning upon rising and morning prayers outside, reading Matthew 10-11, specifically 11:28-30

²⁸ Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

²⁹ Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.

³⁰ For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

Lord, I am on my knees this morning, asking for true freedom and total release from the Old Me. I already do know the "story" that irks me, wrangles my ire, jostles my sense of rightness... none of it is YOU. None of it serves me to serve YOU. I want to Burst Open and release all that is Old.
I want that to Die in Me. 

In the quiet, I can know that the opening salvo of nervousness is fear of no control of where I live (in this case). And it does not take much thought to see that I "endured" my homelife as a child, and safety was no part of it. Safety from abuse, also safety from the anticipation, and the machinations a child goes through and creates as patterns of survival to "figure out" what to do "better" next time etc...

But I spent 30 or more long years in New Age talking to, healing, listening to.... that girl in me. Fortunately, Blessedly - I never sank as a victim.
Always seeking Joy and Uplift.

And of course, only temporary waters satisfied from peak to trough, to peak to trough.

I am satisfied that "addressing, identifying, healing, comforting" that girl is no longer needed nor a part of ME. It sounds harsh to anyone who does not know and love Jesus and perhaps even more significantly, to really know that Jesus Loves You.
But, if I want old patterns, old identifications, old ego patterns to DIE - I must not give them life.

So last night, I wrote my trusted friend who would not judge me on this, and confessed without the story, that I was feeling fears and after sharing, would then be only in the word for my release. Not hypnosis, not chatting more about it ... but The Word.

It landed first in Philippians. Odd I thought until I sat and sat and sat with it. Read through 1-4 several times. KJV. NKJV. I listened to it read to me.
And I sat.

Philippians 4:6-9

⁶ Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.
⁷ And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
⁸ Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.
⁹ Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you.

and

¹⁹ But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.

Jesus, I choose You.
Jesus, I choose Only You.

I release as I know how to, this Old and accept the New.
I pray you Guide me today Holy Spirit in the Silence of my morning.
Free me.
I am Fearless.
That is the real Truth.
I Do Not Fear.
Praise God.

“But Jesus spoke to them at once. “Don’t be afraid,” he said. “Take courage. I am here!” Matthew 14:27.