SO - my living situation.
Miraculous, I am sure God is doing work through me. Sure I am in places He is putting me for His Glory. I have no Doubt.

This journey trying to get moved for every reason I can list, by the end of this month.... well, you would agree with every reason. You would agree that it is time to be gone. You would agree
alcoholic and troublesome landlord
long long 100 mile+ round trip to church and all things I am here for
uncomfortable bed
lack of consistent AC and temperature
lack of internal calm around me

AND YET
Here I sit signing up for another month, at least.
God has me here and demonstrates it is ONLY about His Timing and I am to bring Love and LIght wherever He puts me.

There have been Lisa-typical logicstics and follow-through to find a place. Expecting a place.
Every WEIRD turn was indeed Weird. Right up to this very morning.

So here are a few stories.

Where I am and want to leave:
A roomate came to Christ. I think I wrote about that entire story - I will check.

Where I looked:
A perfect house and people - but...they did not understand Ruby was my dog but that I trained dogs.

A perfect location - and the landlady was weird, harsh, and surrounded by drama. Never even saw the house yet: And she called again this very morning saying she had two rooms.

I sat with the drama of my drive up there 10 days ago, sat with the conviction of telling this story to my friends Melissa and Kenny in NMB, and of all the strings and strangs around this woman and this place -  that indeed God is saying "NO, TRUST ME."

I don't have to kill Isaac. I can listen.

She called me this morning, two days after I told my still-current landlady I was staying... and I paused at the VM, and said God - what is this? What am I to do here? How do I avoid drama or going ways you do not describe?
I texted her back and said I wanted to sure, speak with her.

And she said- Oh, Wrong Lisa. I am renting a place in Gainsville, Florida - want to go there? I feel I could HEAR the Lord Chuckling and my still-lack of discernment that HE is watching for me.

And then a place I wanted originally when I got here. The landlord never responded for 6 weeks.
Suddenly, a phone call: "I can't wait to meet you!" he said.
And a two hour blessed and beautiful conversation followed! Next day meeting for 2 hours happened! Aligned. Hearts for the Lord.
And it morphed into work, and creativity and what can open up between us!
That is still open and to be discussed... Praise God. I like these guys LOTS. It is an entire other story: BUT - their housing for me wasn't ready, yet.
I will definitely write this whole thing out. They have blessed me and I wonder, truly sit IN WONDER... about where it may take us.
Another day.

So, the story I want to stay on - where I live. What am I to do? where is my ministry?
AND:
The Landlady was so excited Ruby and I are staying - for two days she didn't drink and said
YOU MAKE ME BETTER.
The third day - by evening - not so much.
BUT
I have stopped my resistence here and the house is flush with love. And now, my patience is being called... because there is a neediness that swamps me and my time and my fruit is being called and culled again.
Every second.
The Lord calls us. Walks before us.
HE KNOWS MY DAY.

So when I change my parameters to only that I AM HIS SERVANT and WANT TO PLEASE HIM... it is easy to let go of worldy paramenters and logistics... it is satisfying to let it all go and pay attention to where He is putting me and what He calls me to do.

Oh Lord, let me do what You made me for, what You created me to be - and let me NOT DOUBT that it may be to sit in this chair, right here right now, with cigarettes put out when I walk into the porchs.... as though that changes the air... or smell... but it does show love and caring.

Help me Lord, help me see through Your eyes with Your heart and not need so much comfort around me.
I am Yours. Help me Walk it - because I KNOW I MEAN IT.

Psalm 39:4-6

King James Version

⁴ Lord, make me to know mine end, and the measure of my days, what it is: that I may know how frail I am. ⁵ Behold, thou hast made my days as an handbreadth; and mine age is as nothing before thee: verily every man at his best state is altogether vanity. Selah.
⁶ Surely every man walketh in a vain shew: surely they are disquieted in vain: he heapeth up riches, and knoweth not who shall gather them.

Isaiah. 45:2

“I will go before you and make the rough places smooth;

I will shatter the doors of bronze and cut through their iron bars."

Proverbs 3:5-6

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”